54.

weight loss commericials are ridiculous, especially because they all start with "this is not your average commericial!" I WOULD be a nutritionist, because it's one of my passions but I am not good at math and I hate natural sciences

as for food, smc has the best, most flavorful and healthy food EVER. so many different kinds of cooked vegetables and organic pastas. I hate the word food, though -_-


It's really weird how songs remind me of past events. "hold yuh" by gyptian reminds me of the one the favorite nights of my life in the summer with megan christian and kevin.

my sociology teacher refers to this world as a "global village", I love that.

also smc has the most diverse population, everyone I meet is not usually from the area, this semester inparticular I've been countless swedish students

I like driving with the windows, down or cracked open a little when I'm on the free way just because I like to get a feel for how the weather is outside

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dishwasher relief and greif
the freeways calm me down
my favorite thing, ever, is clouds
hand dryers > paper towels
Sustainable Works
the shins master metaphors most definitely

Haiden, my friend from english, ask me what my favorite quote today and it's from Alexander Pope, which I have probably posted before but here it is:
"How happy is the blameless vestals lot!
The world forgetting by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine for the spotless mind!
Each prayer accepted and each wish resigned"

I parked at the other SMC campus today because I could not find parking at all at the main campus, and rode the bus. I like doing that but today on the way back I found a notebook for a girl named Kelsey just sitting there, I picked it up and realized how much it would suck if she lost that. So I took it with me, tried finding her on facebook (or I'll give it to the school) and hopefully I found the right girl so she gets her notebook back!

I hung out with Brianna for a little

It's 1am, I should go to bed. Tomorrow I need to finish writing and then revise my essay for the Art Institute Contest, drop off my film, and a few other things in between work and school.

52.

work. friends;adventure. study

I don't want to be a big consumer of this earth

51.

whoever comes are the right people

whatever happens is all that could have

whenever it starts is the right time

when it's over, it's over

(to me, I love this quote up until line 4...and it gets negative and leaves me feeling unfinished. I was going to re post this, just take out the last line...but I wanted to remember it in a sense. I'm not right or wrong, it's just how I feel. Most people like underlying meanings within saying and quotes but I don't ever want to leave something feeling in heavy boots, I want to feel crisp and accomplished. Always.)

trip; fall, vacation, overreact

so many meanings for so

many different things

tonight was a trip

my thought in the morning;

palm trees and how they are beautiful, but I'm always thrown off when they are not where they belong, such as my front and backyard. I also thought about why people want to deteriorate there bodies with food, substances, cigarette smoke, etc...I feel that this is our body, pretty much all we really have. we should treat it the best we can.

my thought in the evening;

my mind wires around sociology ,it's insane. tonight, in my mind was different labor traditions, work places and the people working there which all stemmed around the Asian family working and most liking owning the Denny's in Hollywood (harvest multi grain blueberry pancakes, not bad)...anyways, I feel and I could be totally wrong but I feel that they took a really big franchise in California, studied it and how Americans love it and decided to own there own franchise and make money...fast. smart, smart thing to do.

good song in ATT store, observation, health, interest, realities. way too, adjective. state of mind. I like the good, nice and innocent. airplanes, airports. so much happened today; thoughts, activities. work was frustrating, actually...but I had a thrilling night, almost.

everything is meant to be.

50.

sitting here in my room after I just got off of work, in warm socks and a sweatshirt feeling more than tired. working at skateland, is fun and all but it's taking up my weekends and it's so much work for little pay...it makes me appriciate working at Rosies a lot more although I am surrounded by youth and it is amusing. I remember being those ages, and acting the way they do now.

running in tall grass

laughing

figuring ourselves out by each other

learning to accept

ironically I hung out with Brianna, Megan and Christine after I just posted last nights blog about missing us all being together. We watched colored girls together, it was sad yet beautiful

it rained hard today but I felt relaxed, peaceful and warmth

5:08 pm, it's flooding on nordoff and havenhurst

depending on which direction I am driving in, my windshield fog up differently

I lost my nose ring, again

I realized I am always unsatisfied when I don't bring my camera, either film or digital, with me

my mother gave me free coupons for coffee today

I can love every season

connection, soul. soul connection, I've only found a few of those

49.

"I will experience what they experience", I kept telling myself.

work for a few hours
brianna

appointment

work for quite a few more hours
study

music

I'm happy

although I do miss these girls getting together every single week, weekend, whenever. were all just growing up, and never stopping. none the less, I love them to death

it rained pretty hard today

48.

In my English class, I made a new friend and his name is Hayden Nelson. Made conversation for a bit before class, and during class discussion. He seems like a interesting soul... he's traveled so I know he will have stories I will be interested in hearing. He's trying to add the class though and seems super determined to get it, best of luck to him.

Geography is going to be boring.

Psychology....evolution...ehhhh. The teacher has amazing ratings though.



Bekka came over after her shoot and we discussed recent life over a venti cup of water from starbucks in her car hiding away from the cold. Other then catching up, we mainly talked about God. I learned more about her, her history and family, her feelings and her true feelings. "Do not fear, or I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

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Today was a fufilling day

I went to work. Then I went to school early, with Brianna and we met Spencer to hang out...gummy bear sun roof catching games, went to Socioogy class which was mind blowing, I can't wait to study it, saw our friend Rena at school and caught up, went to 212 pier with Brianna and met a guy named Ryan...saw him walk up the stairs and he had asked us if the table behind us was taken ,we said no and quickly engaged in conversation...asked him why we was at the cafe and he said it was a long story and I asked why, he decided to sit with us and we have a half hour conversation of where he has been and what he has been doing the last month- total adventure, really cool story.

So many thoughts I need to expand on

"down in the valley"- the head and the heart

God really drops hints in my life, everyday...sometimes multiple times a day. Probverbs 3:5 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding"

46.

went to school, picked up brianna, went to the skate park, read cheesy vday heart, explored and had dinner on Ventura Boulevard, ate at this place that served chicken and waffles- it's called Stevies you should try it.


school was interesting today: english, cultural geography, and psychology. It's going to be a lot of work. I seem to have really good professors. This semester will be a interesting one.



"U go girl"...today was a it-was-meant-to-be-day

45.

Valentines Day, never been a fan. Although my work ordered around 200 balloons to decorate the resturaunt...it was amusing and kind of shocking out how many there were.

This doesn't do it justice AT ALL;

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I've never been more hungry then I was this morning, NEVER. It's all because of last night, I got to work at 4:45 thinking I started at 5:30 and planning enough time to have a meal...then I found out I start at 5. I was so sad, since I worked all day and didn't really eat anything except gatorade and crackers. So I didn't eat really yesterday, this morning I woke up and got to work and was starving. I ate so much salad, pasta and bread. If you think about it, peas, are a healthy hassel. They are vegetables but they are SO little, why do we even eat them? especially on a salad. They never stay on the fork, it's not really worth it. I still eat them.

I'm happy the salad bar at work is healthy, and free.

I really enjoy working around customers that are not my age group.



listened to the beatles with spencer and brianna for the remainder of the night

43

worked ALL day
12-4 at skateland
5-close at rosies
both of which I had a really really good time, I really having a job

after work I hung out my pal spencer and I was reminded how much I am in love with Bon Iver

thought of the night: why do, when you look at night views it twinkles when you look at the city? is that like lights turning off and on. I'm curious. oh and perfect U turns.




came home and realized I was just want take photographs of everyday life and make them into art

42.

I worked both of my jobs today. Skateland is pretty cool, it seems really chill and super fun and Jenna got hired at the same time as me. After work we ordered veggie pizza, couldn't have been better. I've been listening to Spoon today.




Stayed the night in, I need rest. I've been working and riding my bike to work every day as well as going out on every inch of my free time. I'm not complaining though, I'm enjoying it.

41.

tonight was surprising, katie drove to the valley, copz, "imagine there was a shooting"



I've been mentally preparing myself to be vegan for a while now, I really respect it and I think it's beautiful they use everything purely from the earth. I don't know when I'll do it but I want too, at least for a short period. Why not, right?

and today I met Elle, she goes to CSUN and works at in n out. she was riding her bike in front of me, kind of going slow...which I hated because I love going fast. we both were at the red light and I was telling my self I was going to get in front of her so I'm not slowed down. while standing at the red light, I asked her "so how is bike riding today?" and she told me how it sucked because she had to use a old bike that went slow. it makes me remember that you never know someones situation, therefore everyone should always have a equal chance.

40.

brianna, spencer, cole, taylor

I feel I figured everything out

dennys is a weird place, it's SO patterened in there. I never go there, but it's the only thing in the valley open really late so we did




I love my dog

39.

bike rode to work
bike rode back
brianna came over
ate
mailed out the last photoshoot of the bunch
met up with megan
chapstick was really needed today
recognized intentions
ate
went to a view
sang and danced
the cops came, and liked us
completely free
came home
indian moon- state radio

I appreciate being home lately, it's nice and relaxing.

38.

tonight bri & I were supposed to go to a club, but we didn't. we hung out with spencer & taylor and went on a little hike. got in touch with some old music and stole oranges from jenna front yard.

little kids and lizards. it's been fun.