Friday, July 29, 2011


woke up a little earlier
started my day off a little healthier
but didn't end that way
it's okay, tomorrow I'll fix it
and today was my last day of school
anyway, cool buildings, salad, school, back to the buildings but an exit later

I got A's on my final photography project

What I've learned, not from myself but from other souls...close souls: see you had a lot of crooks tryna steal your heart. Don't do it my brothas and sistas
stay honest because the truth comes out eventually

tonight was a night of all my best friends huddled together in one little car. jenna, brianna, spencer. traveling to all different, yet close cities.
i loved it
and a really weird way in which it happened, too

today i fell in love with ecclesiastes

today, also was a Bon Iver day. all day in the car, on the way there. I'm going to two different concerts.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

my good pal spencer showed me this tonight
i reshowed it to megans, just now
i really do love it

so today was a really nice days. I woke up and it happened to be my mothers 40th birthday! I made her a really cute card, that i'll have to post. then I went to school and tones some of my prints. I really do love film and i am realizing i really love photography. then i went work and had a really good shift. forming bonds with co workers is a weird experience. then i hung out with spencer, cody, taylor and derek where i discovered this fantastic film.
now i'm sitting here with megan after moving a heavy floral couches
3 ladies on each end
climbing roof tops and figuring everything out.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

we nearly forfeit

i, i'm telling darkness from lines on you

Saturday, July 23, 2011

days like this I miss when I was carefree, feeling comfortable, fresh,wanting to go somewhere, loving every soul, having a soul to love

now I want to escape and adventure
particularly with someone
but I don't care if it's alone
because I need to do what I want to do

i can't wait for winter

Friday, July 22, 2011

can't grow up, in that iron ground

i need to start doing on more adventures
even if i go alone
come with me, if you want
relax and take pictures
pictures of my own
not an assignment
or someone shouting out my name to do so, either

up until now

my thoughts were criss crossed every single direction
tonight i know i have to take a leap into responsibility
by some awkward conversation and disapproving actions
i didn't feel comfortable
but it's 2:36 and I'm happy I'm home listening to my music
doing what I feel like, not what I feel I should
that leap; might have to be large
into a little hole of isolation to improve, improve
i said, responsibility and i mean it
maybe do some healthy things and change it all around
i'm praying

i have a lot of photos to catch up on
a lot of music to download
a lot to think about, and a lot of people to talk to
i'm missing of few people in my life
and i don't know what happened

Monday, July 18, 2011

9 pm, 9 am sharp.

I'm just about to go to bed, and it's 9 pm.
My foot hurts, my elbow hurts
I tripped down the stairs last well as up
I've gone out countless nights in a row
and I'm exhausted
it's been fun, but it's time for real sleep

and I still have a lot of photos to catch up on.

today was fun, and eventful.
This morning I woke up to Brianna tapping on my window and then it all went down hill from there haah "wholeemgee" "my trunk is full but I'm empty" "the ride"

here is some of my favorite film photos I took today:


frustration? only of the slightest kind

august 15 I'm flying to Santa Cruz, for a week. All I'm going to do is relax, learn, live, sight see, laugh, visit a good friend, visit my uncle, and take pictures that will be hidden. Maybe.

I'm hibernating
I'm hiding
I'm not posting any more pictures for a long while
Maybe of myself
But I'm too over whelmed and too consumed with what everyone else wants to see out of me. I'm starting to hate it. I need to find my outlet. I'm taking too many and it's becoming to hard on me. Truth is, is that I don't even want to take them anymore but I feel at ends with this constand demand that I see online and hear through the whispers of other souls.

I'm not understanding
It's blowing up so fast
and I feel so young
I am young

I used to search and search and search
It's not like that anymore

I mean I'll change back
but I'm reached my limits
I have two paid photoshoots and a wedding
After that I'm taking a break


ever since july, i found out
i've been trying to recreate
thinking positively
but tonight i broke down
no reason
i guess
but hey, new new new
is new
IS new
but when i try to recreate the new
it feels weird
AND THEN it just happens to pop up
and hey, i'm thinking about the old

you got me
i'm fooled
just keeep in touch

love is a thing that you can't define

Though you try with all your might through the riddles and rhymes

But it'll fly you like a kite; it'll throw you to the ground

Thursday, July 14, 2011

lucky aged

me and my best friend are always taking photos, and created this name "lucky aged" from one of the best days of our lives. I haven't updated about my photography in a long while so here are some of the latest we've created together:

proud of these boys

I've been following these boys around in Hollywood when they have shows at The Roxy and Key Club. I actually went to elementary school with one of them way back in the day.I found out about them year or so back becauseI was going to a Divine show and my friend Bekka and I interviewed them, got in free, went back stageand I got to take photos of the night. Wicker came on right before the Divine did and they blew us away. It was the best show, and I loved it so much.

I blogged about it, a long time ago.

anyways, they just made a new music video and here it is
I am thourghly impressed

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

i've been lost in my music

learned every single lyric to this song
his lyrics are pure poetry
I'll be able to sing along on 9/19/11

frustrating day in the dark room

in 2 weeks my black&white film class ends
this class is a challenge, something I've never felt
I'll have to scan and upload all the photos that I've done
well, the ones that I like that is

heres one,

goodybe venice

and Los Angeles, period.
i've spent too much time with you
i'm getting away
in about 3 weeks
i'm going on aventure
all by my lonesome
staying with my uncle
learning, living
taking a train
taking pictures
taking a deep breathe

I need it
hello, Santa Cruz

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

hello world, hope you're listening

forgive me that i'm young

my emotions have been crazy
my thoughts are running wild
i keep getting let downs
i keep having fun nights

i don't know what i want because everything has suddenly changed, and now i'm here stranded yet pulling myself apart from some situations

i haven't been home much
i haven't edited any of my photos
i'm getting too busy

i'm scatter brained
i'm inspired

i just want to go explore somewhere new, hibernate, maybe. no cell phone, no computer...just a camera and maybe a friend.

Friday, July 8, 2011


Now all your love is wasted?

Then who the hell was I?

Now I'm breaking at the britches

And at the end of all your lines

cams going away, beach day

beach, islands
taking risks
being irresponsible
having fun and being young

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

sorry to be heavy, but heavy is the cost

Why did you not show up?
I waited for an hour
I finally gave up
I thought once that I saw you
I thought that you saw me
I guess we'll never meet now
It wasn't meant to be
It wasn't meant to be
I was sure you saw me
But it wasn't meant to be

I don't think that it's the end....

but it's time to leave those feelings behind

I didn't really enjoy the news I saw today
but I had a really cool night
thank you God, for great friends

I wish things that were never meant, were never said

I'll suck it up, like usual

Sunday, July 3, 2011

figuratively speaking

I'm holding onto a piece of knowledge, or at least I think I am, and it's bringing me down

lately, I have been really down on myself

but I'm still having fun, I love my friends and my photo class