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I have a new thing for red hair. Actually I've always loved it but I love it a lot more now.

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seriously, such a fun and relaxing night day/night/ next morning :)

layed out and swam with megan, then went shopping with meg&bri, then later hung out with meg, christian and kevin. didn't really get any sleep but that's okay..it was so worth it.


<3

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Nothing is satisfying to me lately and I'm not as happy as I used to be. Or it seems. I'm not content with anything, especially myself. I want, like a change or something. I don't even know.

I have fun, but that ends and then I come home to nothing...sit on this lame computer and reflect back to a night ago and realize the fun I had last night doesn't even matter anymore. All that matters, is this moment...the moment I happen to be doing absolutely nothing. It's depressing. I don't like being alone, and some people, especially my family, seem to think that something is wrong with me because I hate being alone.

Seriously, who wants to be alone? I think that is a perfectly normal thing to feel.

I'm annoyed and frustrated lately.

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went to the thrift store bought a old minolta film camera and a sweater. then went to SMC to get my ID picture taken with bri, then went down to venice. Fun night.....:)

Bri and I actually were thinking about it and how similar is evolution to Christianity? It's saying that a single cell was ALWAYS there, nothing created that and nothing sparked that...just was there. Now Christians say God was ALWAYS there, nothing made him. Now God made the world and everyone in it, well so did that single cell. So they're say it makes sense that, that little cell was always there but not a God. It's a parallel basically but just saying nothing made something OR something made something.

Now which takes more faith to believe in? A single cell, or a all mighty God? I just don't understand how people can believe this super complex universe was created out of one little itty bitty cell. Now that..... if you ask me, takes a lot of faith.

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I feel 2nd best to everyone and everything lately. I hate it.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!! I LOVE YOU.


hung out with bekka today. met some cool people at the beach. listened to some new music. thought deeper thoughts. I always have the most meaningful days with you! sorry for leaving your side for a short while. my fault. never happening again, you mean so much to me!! so dumb of me too because now you're leaving to Europe soon and it makes me sad. 3 MONTHS IS SO LONG, it's a quarter of a year. I'm so happy for you but I'd be happier if I could go with!

you are awesome. let's go exploring.




these photographs are how I am feeling right now, I don't know what that is exactly...but they just feel right.

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church today was about pain & suffering and how we jump to conclusions about it...as well as blaming it on God.
+suffering is unavoidable. Matt 5:45 "rain falls on the just and unjust", basically bad things happens to Christians and non Christians just the same.
+all sin results in suffering but not all suffering is a result of sin (John 9:1-3)

"for My power is made perfect in your weakness"


Later went to cheesecake factory with Brianna & her family, then hung out with Meg, tanned and swam.

photoshoot I did of Christine:

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saturday, saturday. really fun night.


kick back. flip cup. "wacky and wild july". taco bell. "i'm a cheerleader". scary masks.

hmm, I've been really liking Eminem lately

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work, dinner with the girls, spent the rest of the night with Christine.

Dave Allen-sunshine blues (bahamas)
Zack Berkman- never look back

things that stress me out: the W and T keys that came off my keyboard, my unclean room, not having a debit card, empty picture frames, never finishing a book, my sleep schedule being messed up, split ends, gas going by so fast, my film cameras never working.

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Today I met a lot of people with accents
Today is the first day I can say I was thankful for traffic
Today I felt overwhelmed
Tonight I hung out with Megan
Tonight I laughed really hard
Tonight music hit the spot

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Going to The Black Keys concert with Bekka Gunther on September 28th! I am so excited!!!



Later hung out with Jenna, Skyeler and the gang. Really fun night ;)

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Okay so I own the first generation Ipod nano and I absolutely love it. I'm not sure why, I just think it's the best model they have ever made and I love the look of it and I like how the corners are sqaure instead of rounded. silly as that sounds. Anyways, I don't want a new one...I just want to keep this one but the problem is, is that it's only 2GB...which is not even 400 songs which means I don't have room for all my music which is a major hassel because whenever I put new music on I have to take off some old music. But I don't want a new one although the new Ipod nanos are really cool, I love them but I'm still really attached to mine :) This was also one of the first things I ever bought myself, back in 8th grade I think?

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Day 200. Less then half a year left. So crazy. I'm going to celebrate it in a positive manner.





I love my friends, Brianna, Jenna, Bekka, Lexy
just to name a few, you guys are some of the best :)

I love God.

I love music:
Bon Iver, Tegan and Sara, La Roux, Jose Gonzalez, Cold War Kids, Phoenix, Vampire Weekend, Spoon, Mumford & Sons, Wicker, Ingrid Michaelson, Tribe Called Quest, Ingrid Michaelson.

I love photography and what you can do with it.

I love art.

I love being free minded and spirited.

I love society and the human race.

I love learning.

I love my parents even tho they drive me nuts all-the-time, they give me a lot I should be thankful and I am so blessed.

I love waking up and having a fresh start.

I love dreaming.

I love clouds, hands, flowers, thoughts, memories, books, film, geography, clean teeth, maps, morning, winter, shoes.

I love living.

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Today in church was about "camouflaged faith" with a lot of references to Joseph and his brothers. About private, public and core convictions and changes in how we should respond to Jesus.

The pastor gave a reference to boats and how when building them and once completed you have to test it out in the ocean to see if it will sustain all the waves, winds and storms. If the boat comes back a wreck and into pieces with many problems...it wasn't the ocean that did the damage, it was the flaws within the boat that wasn't prepared for the ocean. The ocean only revealed that the boat was not worthy and that is what allows it to be repaired.

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thrifting in Santa Monica with my favorite girls, Brianna, Jenna, and Skyeler




found this lovely song on this website www.willowfrank.com which is a website for art, fashion, photography and music. It's quite amazing. I am in love with it actually

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tonight I'm staying home because I'm so tired it's ridiculous.

but I gave blood today because I'm all woman and I was actually really calm this time. usually I cry :D....kind of.



I starting re reading extremely loud and incredibly close again, not that I have finished it or anything but I was half way finished and I just never read the whole book. This was months ago. So I decided I to start over and finish it. It's actually a really cool book.

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Hurricane Harbor with the kiddos at work. It was fun, a little stressful and a lot of yelling like "don't walk ahead of me" etc. I was in charge of about 7 other kids which is a lot for me, but I stuck with my co worker Jeff for most of the time so it made it a lot easier. I mean he had 5 other kids himself but still less stressful.

Later went to Jennas and our friend Skyeler was there too...Jenna told me she had a surprise for me and it ended up being Sky, which is a good surprise because I missed her!! All 3 of us used to hangout like every weekend. Hopefully we'll start that up again. We went to go see inception with some friends, it was fun. I was soo tired tho but I love meeting new people haha.



"gooGLe maps"
"paLm"
"everybodys messaging me!"

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I really shouldn't get this backed up on my blogs because I can barely remember that I have done...which means I rummage through facebook finding my mobile uploads or posts to remind me and then I can never remember what I was thinking that day or anything interesting...or the basically.

SOO I apologize to anyone reading these.

Pool day at work, exhausting. Then hung out with Megan & Brianna and stayed up too late, rented Chloe at like 1am and we watched it but then I fell asleep through half of it which I'm bummed about because Megan said it was really good (Brianna and I both fell asleep because we had work the next morning)

"we just wanted one fun night"

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I'm having so much fun in my life, being a free spirit and doing what I want. Concerts, friends, exploring. I have best friends, the best I have ever had. I couldn't ask for more.

I still find you in the back of my mind and my dreams.

I used to never find myself alone, I enjoyed my solitude. Now, I hate it. I always have to be doing something. Always trying to better myself when I used to be completely comfortable.

I'm too young, why did you come so early in my life? give it a month longer and it'll be half-a-year since. If I wait to long, you might be gone. Am I willing to take the risk of waiting long? I am not willing to live my life with regrets.

I'm torn. If it's meant, it'll be.

young love is such dumb love
call it what you want, it was still enough

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fleet foxes and damien rice, you are S L O W L Y growing on me, but I still don't like you that much. I want to like you though.

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went to Shepard of the Hills church today with a group of my friends, I really enjoyed it, I think I might go there more often. Went to lunch with both Dereks, Kaliee, Lindsay and Brianna.

Learned that Mochi is so much cheaper at Trader Joes then Ralphs.

Hung out at the park for a little



Then we didn't know what to do


so we went to this cool street in Burbank & did a photoshoot

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Hebrews 11:6

And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.

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work then Divine concert!!! along with other bands like Assemble the Skyline & My hero...I really wish Wicker played, they are my absolute FAVORITE! then pinkberry and jacuzzi. fun fun fun night.

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field trip at work, saw a musical @ CSUN then went to burbank for a "nature hike", it was about a mile long and went you reached the top you could see all of the city. it was cool



later went to Ashleys and jacuzzied it and made new friends :) haha

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pool day @ work today. two hours straight in a pool in the beating sun with a baggy t-shirt on over my two piece bathing suit is not my favorite thing in the world but gotta keep a good attitude! cute life guards changes everything :) haha just kidding.

panera bread with brianna then bought tickets to tegan & sara / paramore in September! so stoked. Tegan & Sara is like our band haha. They're so cool to me and really creative and I don't know any band like them.



and this reminds me how much I want to go to coachella SO bad

there is so many things I life I want to do

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I don't want to sit in LA a minute longer then I have too

I want to travel as much as possible. I want to explore the beautiful and unexpected where most civilization does not live or roam. I want to go somewhere new everyday, and every day I want to do something I have never done.

I want to capture it all with film. Rolls and rolls of film.

I want to grow up, look back and be satisfied with my young life. It's mine and that is such a fresh feeling. I don't want to waste one breath.

I want to go to cities that scream art and are over populated with creative souls to learn off of and be inspired by.

First stop, San Francisco. In the winter. Road Trip. (it's a far stretch but I hope to pull it off)

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I'm really excited for college, I'm excited to learn again, meet to people and experience things I've never experienced! I hope I like it. I think I will. Maybe I'll meet some cool photographer kids, that would be awesome.

I want to start shooting with film because I love the way film looks and I enjoy looking at film art more then I do digital. It's so intriguing to me. The only problem I have is that me and film so get along. I have had so many bad encounters with film and film cameras. I get frustrated. Maybe I should just try harder.

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4th of July!! I went down to Santa Barbara with Briannas family. We ate at this mexican resturant, which was really good! Then went down to the beach where we watch fire works and hung out. Came back and ate mochi while chilling in the jacuzzi...best part of my night by far. I don't think anything could have been more satisfying at that moment.

I really love fireworks too. they're so cool and I love the thump you get in your chest when they fire.



this is a joke btw. we were making fun of stupid faces and poses people do for pictures on facebook and myspace. haha.