deep thinkers, shallow mind sets

I've erased
and rewrote
and erased
and rewrote

I feel like I can't blog anymore
ever since my trip, I've been jounaling
where no one can see
because that is how it's been lately
I've been really thinking about all the shallow mind sets
I can't do it anymore, I can't be around you

let me tell you, I love my friends NOT because they're models or pretty
I love their souls, stictly.

let me tell you, I've prayed for 2 people to leave my mind and my thoughts. they both entered my life at the same time, in complete different areas. they both were amazing, but only one has left my mind. dear other one, please leave.

last night I felt in love at bible study

some things I learned lately is too enjoy the moment I'm in now
to appriciate my parents, my home and my friends even more

so I think I have decided about college. I want to get my degree in photography...then I want to go to San Francisco and study nutrition. I'm not going to pass up my dream to go to college. BUT I'm going to pray and have God take me wherever he wants me.

hey guys, heaven is for real

Isaiah 40:31

But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength

They will soar like eagles

They will run and not grow weary

They will walk and not be faint

I feel like crying

When I shouldn't be
Today my laptop broke
A couple weeks ago I bow a new and really expensive camera
Lately ive have been trying to stay stronger in my faith
But lately I've been having some struggles;
With myself and the world around me
I'm staying strong though, I think
I just want God to take me where ever he wants me
And I need to remember that this world is only temporary
And material possessions are only temporary

Life is hard, and I'm gonna struggle
I just need to learn to work harder and keep the faith

In Matthew 6: 25-34 it talks about how we should not worry about what we eat or drink or wear because our heavenly father will take care of us in the end. I hold is verse very dear to me because I am a big worrier about everything. Just not even an hour ago my laptop broke and I had to remember immediately that verse. My best friend Brianna is a big blessing to me as well because she is my sister in Christ and we always uplift each other...Megan recently too.

Another verse I read a few hours ago is Matt 7:7 which says "ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock on the door and it will be opened.....so basically I need to learn to start praying more wisely, not only for myself but for the people I care about as well as the people who need it the most.

Right now, I'm in Santa Cruz visiting my uncle and adventuring. I've been hitting the gym hard, walking around town, going to the beach , site seeing and shopping (which I shouldn't anymore if I'm going to buy a new laptop)....I really miss my friends right now but I'm doing things that I normal wouldn't do so it's pretty cool. I've been writing in a journal everyday as well as taking photos of everything I do. So I'm going to be posting blogs later!

Have a good night, friends

you're probably second guessing
about these posts
but I think you know
you're still on my mind, friend


I want to update you and say God is doing amazing things
all I want to do is be consumed by God right now
my best friends, amazing bible verses, learning experiences and some good music

all natural

right now it's 1:30 pm and I'm sitting here watching "extreme cribs" on MTV while editing some wedding photos I took this last saturday. I usually never watch TV but today I turned it on and one of the homes was on acres and acres of land and it was a "sustainable home" basically every part of the home was made strictly from the earth and every part benefits the earth...like when they take a bath, the bath water drains into the garden and they even use sustainable soaps that feed the plants.

I want a home like that

and it is really beautiful ...all the artchiteture and what not

anyway, I can't post the photos from the wedding yet because I haven't recieved my compensation yet so I've been working on them...but I guess I can show you a sneak peak

weight it coming off, soaring high

Once you get the feeling
It wants you back for more
It says it’s gonna heal again
You won’t make the call
One step back, you’re leaving it
Now it’s moving on
Why won’t you believe in it
Until it’s gone

masonry of modern dealings

sometimes I have these really big impulses to write

Justin Vernon inspires me completely

I don't think I can ever handle a broken heart

the days are feeling longer

I wish I didn't feel so much

last night we pulled an all nighter

yesterday I went to griffith observatory

last night I missed last summer

yesterday I kept myself really active and healthy

last night I dwelled on what I don't have

yesterday I spent with my soul sister

last night I received a good answer, but not one I wanted to hear

this always happens

I need to grow

I miss something I thought was something else but I thought to myself why would God grant me something amazing if I wasn't praising him in the first place? I said I was, and I believed...but I was showing it in my life. Now I am. I never want to drift off. I want to stay strong, forever. I keep yearning for each sunday.

are you scared to death that it's the end? yes

and the symmetry of dreams and feelings, is the imagery of love in the air

it's above the code