awesome music video

we made a pact on being healthy

 {some lemon, ginger and crazy mix of fruit juice }

today was weird

I had a meeting with my teacher and he asked me where am I aiming to focus my photography towards. Bit of an interesting question. I have been photographing for almost 6 years. 6 years of my life consumed with this hobby of "photography" and I never had this interesting of a question. It is the weirdest thing to be to be choosing my path. A path that I can NEVER give up on. A path that requires a lot of hard work. 

It's SOO weird this all blossomed from me being a loner as a 15 year old in my room and photographing myself in my back yard, and living in a cyber world called "flickr". Where, yes, I had friends all across the world. My real friends sucked anyway although some of those friends made great models :) 

Just the other day I was with my friend John and I showed him around my neigborhood and we stopped at the train tracks. All the memories were catching up with me; Auriel & Jenna, Trevor, Joey, Carley. All these people I would bring to the train tracks and just hang out with. 
Man, 15 was such a cool age and at that time all I wanted to was to grow up.

Time goes by fast, I'll say 

I swear on my life I think I'm a photographer because my parents had a photography studio when they were in their 20's and I would always be brought to work. Thinking to back in the day, how cool of a job that must have been. Developing photographs and what not. Maybe I breathed in too many photographic chemicals as a infant.

So where is my photography going you ask?
these words come to my mind; modern, vintage, classy yet I want to stay "different" 

Hello Career,
you're making me feel pressure and this is something I can not eject myself from
Thanks,
Jessica 

Once you get the feeling 

It wants you back for more

Says it's gonna heal again 

You won’t make the call 

One step back, you’re leaving it 

But now it’s moving on

Why won’t you believe in it 

Until it’s gone

janglin soul

be free

you were made to be free 

today;

I met a future wedding client

I fell in love with soy lattes

I made some crazy juice

I went to jennas

I did some stuff

I went to the park, alone

I ran through the thick sprinklers 

I watched the rainbows in the water droplets

I impulsively bought a bell pepper, blackberries, pretzel m&ms, a nylon magazine, eating well magazine, shiny rainbow shoe laces and this little booklet for good quotes tonight

I made some crafts 

"It's that time and that place and that song, and you remember what it was like when you were in that place. And then you listen to that song, and you know you're not in that place anymore, and it makes you feel hollow. You can't just go find that stuff again"

The Creek....

Jumping into that creek from that tall rock wondering and waiting to find out if the creek was deep enough was the most exhilarating experience I've had in a long time. Just doing something for me, doing something outrageous. That day was such a happy solitude although I was not alone. I felt myself, free from others, happy in my skin. I watched you go off, I watched you be independent but I'd go as far to say that I was more than happy. I sat on the rock in the faint sun with goose bump skin slowly warming up- feeling beautiful. Closing my eyes, feeling a tremendous inner peace.

I get back to thinking how it would be, how things would have turned out but whenever I get into that jive I have to remind myself that we are all dying and you can't just wonder about something for the rest of your life. You need to pick yourself up, and carry on. Pack up your feelings and go. Gather your past and succeed. 

Start new, start fresh, just START

I believe that others can feel my energy more than I am aware of it

and all this time I thought I was so good at hiding it.

I need a new person

I need someone like me 

I need new life

I need new thoughts

I need refreshment
I need to be outrageous.... always

I need to jump into cold, cold water more often


"I see a field of flowers, but these flowers are dead, dark and depressed because of the winter. This field of flowers is just waiting upon spring so they can fully bloom---and when spring comes you will bloom for than ever. I see it right now. Just know that spring is coming" -Jesse Ruggles to me

sun grips, rain slips
working off the day
sinking into night
these past two nights i've been waiting till the morning
go away darkness, escape me
let my eyes see the morning glow
let the inspiration flow
night;you hold me no purpose
all i think about is the fresh crisp
breathe in breathe out
patience, I tell myself
I can't bare it
sleep won't keep me in her arms
the hours that await
keep me on the feet
feeling the beat
i drain myself in the night
my thoughts will not let me go
my brain ponders
my eyes flash
my heart drifts
i hate when i'm in a laze
never let me back into that daze
i live for the days
come faster, always

today was so magical

two different shoots, two models each

I was so happy

here's a little glimpse

 

 

 

Day 10

so I failed to do something everyday but I will not give up until I accomplish 28 recipes. 18 more to go!

sweet&salty acorn squash.

-acorn squash, oil, salt, pepper, brown sugar, coconut 

and it keeps traveling on

I recently just went through my old posts and it's crazy to see that I've had this blog since highschool. Junior or senior year. It's really quite cool. I noticed that I am still kind of the same in my taste of things and interests. What I though was really cool was seeing when I would post my most recent favorite songs at the time. Music is so important to me. So here are my recent favorite songs:

Tesselate-  Alt - J
Cloud Nine- Ben Howard
The Privateers- Andrew Bird
Furr- Blitzen Trapper
Freedom- Josh Garrels
The Giantees- Bombay Bicycle Club
It's Time - Imagine Dragons
Time To Run- Lord Huron
Stubborn Love- Lumineers
Babel- Mumford and Sons
Mountain Sound- Of Monsters and Men
Amsterdam- Peter Bjorn and John
Yellow Brick Road- Agnus and Julia Stone
Boots of Spanish Leather- Bob Dylan (and covered by the lumineers)
Fatal Short- Andrew Bird
Truth - Alexander
Hold on - Alabama Shake s

lady river

i haven't made anything two days and these past three days i've ate SO bad. it's driving me nuts. food and me have a bad relationship.

I think I'm going to go on a raw diet starting wednesday till easter 

Jaydens 1st Birthday!

Day 9

Day 8

bell peppers, rice, marinara sauce, apple smoked mozzarella, parmesan, onion, tomato, corn, beans, garlic, parsley

pollinate, tesselate

 

 

Day 7

spaghetti with dill mushroom cream sauce

& there's gold falling from the ceiling of this world

falling from the heartbeat of this girl

falling from the things we should have learned

falling from the things we could have heard

falling from the people that we heard

falling from the love we never earned

falling from the sky we should have burned
falling from my heart

Day 6

spinach salad with parmesan, tomato, avocado, white onion, raisins w/wheat toast
dressing: balsamic vinegar, oil, maple syrup, minced garlic, lemon, salt & pepper