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"I scraped my knees while I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven
Seems like it's getting harder to believe in anything
Than just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts"


One of things that blows my mind is that, everyone on this earth and I mean EVERYONE lives their own life. I always find myself thinking about that. We get so caught up in our own lives that we don't even recognize that everyone is just the same as us, they want love and friendship, they want to dream and explore and most of the time they want to be just like everyone else. Why are we so selfish? What are we even? Just another complex but simple soul roaming this planet trying to find direction. We all want to be recognized and praised for something good we do. I'll admit it, I do all the time. Everyone just wants, wants, want...why can't we be happy with who we are? ahh, it's all so confusing and I always get ahead of myself with all these thoughts.

"The tragedy, it seems unending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to break and bending
We're taking shortcuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero"

I have so much compassion for people and I love everyone. wow, I love people and society...no matter how corrupt this world is, I care for everyone and I want to learn about them. But it's still so strange to me that out of the BILLIONS of people that are breathing right now, we all are so different, we all are unique in the way we look, act and think yet we all are the same. Why do we all get angry with each other when in reality were all just brothers and sisters...in the same world, breathing the same air and having the same habits and actions as the person next to us. Why waist so much energy on hating when we can love. Now I just sound like a hippie or something... I just don't want to waist time on this incredible earth with so much to learn and so many people to meet. I would say one of my favorite things to do is meeting and talking with new people.


"Well, I can see behind the curtain
The wheels are cranking, turning
It's all wrong, the way we're working
Towards a goal that's non-existent
It's not existent, but we just keep believing"


I guess in the end it all comes down to one word: happiness. I feel that's all we strive for...and we all have different things that make us happy. I wish everyone could find their true happiness...and well my happiness is simply just having someone there to talk, learn and laugh with. I never want to be by myself, I always want to be with someone...a new friend, a old friend, a best friend...it doesn't matter.

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Today it's been exactly a month I have been a high school graduate...it's nice :)

hung out with lexy and her puppy canyon


came home then Brianna picked me up & we went to the Sherman Oaks galleria to see Eclipse @ midnight with her work friends Chris & Harrison and their friends from school Chris & Jake. It was funny because the 4 guys are way more into the movie then we were...two of them were on Edwards side and the other two were on Jacobs side. Silly. Brianna & I had fun making fun of how dramatic the acting way and made jokes for the first half. Really fun night! Only got around 4 hours of sleep.

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photoshoot with lindsay & cody:

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Sometimes I forget to write blogs, and then a few days later I'm like shoot I've missed 3 days. yeah, last night was one of those days.

Well sunday, went to church, went to the beach, hung out with friends, jacuzzied it.

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A part of me wishes that I went away for college, like AWAY...far from parents and home where I wouldn't have rules or curfew. The other part is excited to go to Santa Monica and stay with all my friends, gain more experience with my photography career and maybe make a bigger business then what I have now.

Well I guess, I'll get a little taste of both. 2 years spent a home and HOPEFULLY the rest of my college career spent far, far away from what I'm used too. I really hope I don't change my mind and get so comfortable and never get the chance of going away. I can see that happening.



rhinestone eyes- gorillaz
magic show- electric owls
i've got friends- manchester orchestra
hang me up to dry- cold war kids

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Today was a good day, minus one factor that the Emporers New Groove DVD had a bunch of scratches on it and it would not play for the kids at camp! That is my favorite movie. Anyways, I took some head shots this morning, got a boba latte, went to work, got off a half hour early, got paid, and went to dinner with Lindsay & Katy.


I really love being hired for my photography...that would be a awesome job. I had client 3 shoots this week! I'm hoping to do a lot of creative shoots next week because I have a entire week off! I want to stay super busy.

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Field trip day, went to the El Capitan in Hollywood to see Toy Story 3 in a 3D then after they had a like a Toy Story themed carnival for the kids. It was super fun and such a great day. I made some conversation with a guy named Seth and he was from another camp...he lives Wisconsin and he goes to college with a friend who lives in Michigan and they came down to Southern California looking for a summer camp job and both got hired in one in North Hollywood. I thought that was so cool and what a summer to remember. That would be awesome to do that, maybe with a friend just live in another state or city all summer and work at a camp.

I love meeting new people!

Anyways a good, tiring, funny, outgoing, 10 hour day. Getting paid tomorrow, I'm excited for that! & I have another headshot session tomorrow....3 client photoshooots in 1 week is pretty awesome! I'm back into my photographic self again, which is nice...I went through a LONG break.

Speaking of photography, well not really but something that ties into it. The other day my & I were playing and he snapped at my face, not in a mean way, but she caught my left eye and I swear for 5 minutes it was pure blur, with a peach tint...I thought I was blind in my left eye...after all the blood cleared up and I calmed down (I got super light headed and my ears were ringing) my mom said it was just a cut on my eye lid and it was swollen for a few days and really pink. I don't know, it's just a reminder of how much we take our body parts for granted. A eye, so simple yet so complex can stop working properly in a split second....and hey, there goes my photography career or it would be a GREAT challenge to keep up the work I am producing. I am thankful for my eyes, they do a lot of amazing stuff for me and I wouldn't want that to change. God is good.

Long blog...sorry. I wonder who would even read this, so long and no pictures. I definitely wouldn't. Well if you got this far... thank you :)

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Took pictures for Hayley Montroy today at Hansen Dam in Sylmar!



Headshot:


I need to stay away from teal shirts in headshots, it's my 3rd client to wear teal!

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I really really love the camp I work at, the kids and the staff! I'm hoping to bring my camera one day in the summer & take a bunch of photos!

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Head shots of Caitlyn Campos:

commercial:


theatrical:

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photography, nutrition, the human race, and geography are my passions....I want to have a career involving all of these. I'm so in love with the world and what it has to offer. There is always something to learn and I feel we don't have enough time on this earth to...why is it "normal" to have one career?..I want to have more then one at the same time!! I hope I have a career that I love, I don't want to be one of those people who hate their job.


I keep catching 11:11 lately.

song of the day: fader- temper trap

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painted our nails matching, because were SO LAME haha. layed out by the pool then decided to take pictures







"take a wild guess on the pony express"
"rock on, hang loose"
"yes gypsi bri aka the lord"
"you're like the hulk"

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first week of work= over...put in 35 hours! wow, I can't believe I get paid to color, play handball, cook, go on field trips and watch movies. It is pretty tiring tho, but I really enjoy the camp I am at and it's well worth it. Went to my cousins graduation party after...I love my armenian family, they're so fun, free spirited and have really great food :)

Today was another day that I realized that I love the human race, everyone is so beautiful. Watching people learn, grow up, and have fun is so amazing. I'm such a deep thinker, haha, well it's better then not caring at all I guess.

Now for the less sensitive part of my blog- I'm really diggin the song "my first kiss" by 3OH!3 ft. Ke$ha today.

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Woke upat 7 am after 5 hours of sleep, got a donut, subway and advil before work. Today was a field trip, we went down to the science center in LA and I followed behind the bus in my car...which isn't the most fun thing to do. Anyways the trip was pretty fun, and we saw a IMAX movie which I fell asleep in, I kind of wish I didn't because from what I saw of it- it looked pretty good. At the end of the 10 hour shift, I went to the Faith Baptist graduation with Brianna

Now I'm home and looking forward to a lot of sleep.


random fact: I really love maps and globes...I'm so intrigued by them, I can look at them forever. I really think they're so artistic hahahah. They had floor and wall maps in the science center.



If I ever had to get a tattoo, I would get a butterfly or a map on my right wrist...kind of like that. I don't think I ever would.

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Work, church, chipotle, Briannas.


"just saying" hahahaha

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Engagement photo session with Alison Flynn & Dustin Greene :) They turned out so wonderful, I was so excited to work with them! Here is what I have done so far...