Wednesday, June 30, 2010


"I scraped my knees while I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven
Seems like it's getting harder to believe in anything
Than just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts"

One of things that blows my mind is that, everyone on this earth and I mean EVERYONE lives their own life. I always find myself thinking about that. We get so caught up in our own lives that we don't even recognize that everyone is just the same as us, they want love and friendship, they want to dream and explore and most of the time they want to be just like everyone else. Why are we so selfish? What are we even? Just another complex but simple soul roaming this planet trying to find direction. We all want to be recognized and praised for something good we do. I'll admit it, I do all the time. Everyone just wants, wants, want...why can't we be happy with who we are? ahh, it's all so confusing and I always get ahead of myself with all these thoughts.

"The tragedy, it seems unending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to break and bending
We're taking shortcuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero"

I have so much compassion for people and I love everyone. wow, I love people and matter how corrupt this world is, I care for everyone and I want to learn about them. But it's still so strange to me that out of the BILLIONS of people that are breathing right now, we all are so different, we all are unique in the way we look, act and think yet we all are the same. Why do we all get angry with each other when in reality were all just brothers and the same world, breathing the same air and having the same habits and actions as the person next to us. Why waist so much energy on hating when we can love. Now I just sound like a hippie or something... I just don't want to waist time on this incredible earth with so much to learn and so many people to meet. I would say one of my favorite things to do is meeting and talking with new people.

"Well, I can see behind the curtain
The wheels are cranking, turning
It's all wrong, the way we're working
Towards a goal that's non-existent
It's not existent, but we just keep believing"

I guess in the end it all comes down to one word: happiness. I feel that's all we strive for...and we all have different things that make us happy. I wish everyone could find their true happiness...and well my happiness is simply just having someone there to talk, learn and laugh with. I never want to be by myself, I always want to be with someone...a new friend, a old friend, a best doesn't matter.


  1. You know I feel the exact same way, you just are better at putting it into words :)

    I miss you Jessica and I'm thinking about you! <3

  2. you're a lot better at writing than I far