1: Bekka Gunther

Me: "just be filled with peace"

Bekka: "let me see if I can do that"

every time I go through some kind of inner battle, I run to Bekka. If there is one person who can stand me back up on my feet and get me out of my discouraged mind set and pump me up to do something, it's Bekka. If there is one person who can understand my soul, speak my language completely and heal me....it's Bekka. I am an incredibly deep  person and she is the only (well, there has been one other...but I don't know where they are right now) person who can get on my level. I feel like when were together my words become alive and I can finally talk, feel, grasp, and  breathe again.

Something in me figured she was the perfect person to start with and that something was right as I watched the day unfold. Through the long canyon drives, honest songs, velvet winds, warm sun rays and chilled still waters, laughs, talks,  flowing words, screaming till there was no more air in our fragile lungs, blind poetry, stories of travel, 30 second drawings, predicted thoughts, and future ideas...today ended being exactly what I needed.

Anyway, I don't know where I am going with this series really.....but what I do know is that were all just a little quick to judge, and forget that these HUMANS have eyes, stories, souls, lungs to breathe with, arms to hug with and hearts to love with. We forget that they are a person by the trials they go trough, mistakes they make and we make ourselves feel better by pity and self gratifying gossip that we feel entitled too and we simply forget what it feels like to be S O M E O N E.

But if I'm going anywhere with it, then it would photograph a myriad of different humans asking them questions (like I do best) and seeing life through their eyes that hopefully will inspire me, grow me, culture me, and let me learn to love life through someone else's perspective. I think we all need to understand our race better..the human race.

Myself included.

new series: I know how it feels to be someone

if you wanted me to sit down and write out what my brain has been thinking for a while, it may look like the image on the left. Scattered. It is full of these powerful thoughts and ideas, but they are so fragmented and tattered that putting them into a sentence wouldn't be possible. 
I've wrote, and rewrote what I've wanted to say about this series and it brings me to the image on the right.
Something I didn't write, actually, but something that just caught my eye to which I admired and felt the need to photograph.
...this could explain a lot of my life ((Impulsive photographs))
Maybe I'm slowly figuring it out as I type this last draft.

Anyway, I was driven crazy by my thoughts last night, as per usual, trying to come up with ideas that were simply just not there... I thought maybe I should take a step back... or maybe I should take two steps closer?

I liked the idea of being close.

I think were all too distant. 

I think were all a little too quick to judge.

Sometimes...just sometimes I think we forget what it feels like to be "someone" 

So...this brings me to my next venture and  I still don't really even know what that is

words for inspiration: passion, scream, harmony, youth, excavate

may our hearts sing an honest song

I pray for a life of passion

May 7th

today I was in a pessimistic mood and kept having to change my mind every 10 minutes. everything from the door not closing right to way the temperature of my air conditioner and all the in between. I actually amazed myself about how bad my attitude was.

over all, the day was awesome though
and life has been great!

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jesialex, april 2013