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Saturday was fun up until midnight, then it all went down hill but I shall not mention that on this blog, it isn't necessary. Went to school, hung out with Megan, went thrift store stopping then hung out with Jenna and made the most unnecessary videos that kept us laughing forever.

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tomorrow is my freedom!!! I'm so excitd! I feel like a 14 year old girl again, getting excited for a n y plan that comes my way. I've basically already planned out my weekend, week and next weekend. I won't be home, that's for sure.

oh, so excited!


freedom=freeDUMB, this time I'll make smarter decisions ;) I've been living on the edges since about July, IT'S BEEN SO FUN let me tell you but I gotta watch myself. This is a little reminder. Hopefully, never to happen again.

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I want to go out.

I want to talk to my boyfriend.

I want to laugh with my best friends.

I want to dance.

I want to go explore.

I can't be here anymore.

I want it to be Saturday, already.


My heart feels heavy.


although, today I cried from laughing, so much....I just wish I could've have lasted longer. "Umm so what about...a....indian? like a vicious one?" But honestly, I have the best of friends...I need to be thankful.

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my first time ever writing my blog post EARLY, but it's a must because I'm dedicating it to Bekka Gunther aka my SOUL SISTER. Literally. I have never experienced a friendship like I have with her. She is leaving to Europe for 3 months and I won't see her till January!



It all started with her needing my help, I was a photographer and she was interning for the Santa Clarita Signal. I remember it so clearly, I was at my ex boyfriends house when she called and left a voicemail. After finishing dnner, I listened to the message and at first I didn't really understand what she wanted I didn't even know if I wanted to help out...because back then I wasn't like I am now. Believe it or not, I was not a very deep person. I was never into taking adventures, meeting people, or learning about anything I could like I am now

I really think Bekka has a lot to do with that, and what has changed inside of me.

But I decided to help her out for the fun of it. She picked me up from work one day, two summers ago, and we headed off to Burbank, were we interviewed a band called Tha Tooonz...interesting people but that is besides the point! On the car ride there we had SO much to talk about, we interviewed the band and had a blast, then later we went to dinner and still yet had much to talk about. We also did our very first photoshoot together. Weeks following she was getting emails to interview all sorts of bands, so we did! It was SO FUN, and such a adventure. We interviewed about 4 other bands, all with different stories. Some really cool, some really creepy, and some we got really awesome opportunties to go concerts and hang out backstage. Within that time we started hanging out as friends, we started taking crazy adventures to hollywood, santa monica, hidden areas of chattsworth, etc...doing photoshoots, meeting people, going to concerts, discovering music, having AMAZING talks and being completely passionate about life and people.



One of the most amazing experiences of my life was with her, just a few months ago. It was the day that what was coming out of my mouth FINALLY kept up with all my stirring thoughts...we were hiking and at the top of the hill my mouth just began spilling out phrases and thoughts and everything wrapped up together and made absolute sense. We were up there for a hour in the blazing heat and I didn't even realize it. It was one of the most honest conversations I could have had. I didn't even feel like it was another person, I felt like I was talking to my other self because n o t h i n g was held back. As weird as that sounds, that's how it was.

I wish I could tell you more stories, but they are so many because every single time we've hung out it has been a experience like the one I just mentioned. She has really taught me to LOVE people and she has taught me how you can learn and take in experiences from every "soul" on this earth. Her goal and mine now too is just too meet as many souls and to gain as many life experiences as possible with stepping out of your comfort zone and taking chances.



She has seen my laugh, cry, worry, wonder, learn, experience, and fall in love. She just knows. She's my soul sister, and my best friend. I almost feel like her going away for 3 months is like her dying. I know she is going to do amazing things. People have always told US that were going to do amazing things, and I can not for her to come back so we can finally put those "amazing things" to the test. It will happen.



Have a safe, fun, healthy, and amazing trip . Brain love, forever =)

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It's true, I like catchy and cliche music. Some people get this view of me online for my weirdly edited pictures and indie music. Cool, but I do LOVE Eminem and Paramore. Even that new band Neon Trees. I am normal sometimes, and I like "radio" music. I don't like to show that part of myself, but I do. Sadly, even crappy music. This is like my online journal so I should be honest with it.

It's almost like my guilty pleasure but you'll never find that stuff on my ipod. Strictly radio, that's it.

Truth is, I love and accept (almost) all music. I can find beauty in anything. There definitely are some exceptions.

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I <3 KT & BG


and sometimes BW, click to make it bigger. you will not understand this, but it might be amusing to read.

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"It’s not about giving back. I think it’s about getting on your hands and knees and digging out what it already has. It’s in us. It’s in the town. It’s in the land. It’s in the people. It’s in the music. I think it just needs breathing room."






e v e r y t h i n g he has to say is so honest. I can't even tell you how much I love him.