clouded mind & heavy heart

"To dream that you are standing on the edge of a cliff means that you have reached an increased level of understanding, new awareness, and a fresh point of view. You have reached a critical point in your life and cannot risk losing control. "

interesting

last night I went to Skid Row with a group of friends and fed the homeless. It was really awesome. 

I've been deep in my thoughts lately, everyone thinks there is something wrong but I'm fine. Maybe there is something wrong but I'm not that aware.

I've been really inspired to just keep going. Taking every opportunity to grow and to help one another.

Conversations have been interesting

My mind has been elsewhere

I can't focus on normal things

I'm not trying to be rude

today I really enjoyed the mumford and sons new album

I don't really write in this anymore due to my personal journal. It's just so much more freeing in there. No one can see. I don't have to hide anything. I am starting a new blog series though on all different crosses, it will just be photographs of crosses everywhere.

I'm going through a phase 

love would win if it would fight

going camping with my soul sister!

Bekka:

leaving at 6am tomorrow for the Eastern Sierras! will be back sunday

I turned 20

and my friends through me the best party ever

often times I wonder if musicians get tired of going on tour and playing the same song 2034851013 times

or do they always love it?

because I know when I have to tell the same story about 5 times, I want to shoot myself in the head...but then again that is how they get money to live...so whether or not they love it, they have to pretend they love it

right....?

handz and feelingz

feelings,
feelings, what we hold to
i'm always feeling my feelings
I can't help how much I feel. I let my feelings take over most of the time. My passion controls me. I let my feelings confuse me, I let my feelings guide me to unrealistic lands, places I wish of so bad. I dream in feelings.

my heart leads me astray
my heart tears me apart
my heart guards my life

I'm in love with your hands; you inspired me to write this. I enjoyed the last time spent together. I don't think it's right, but I missed your touch. I enjoyed your touch, but I don't think I could go back to your touch.

Adventure-less

I consider myself full of adventure, but I need bigger and greater
Routine drives me crazy.
I want to be everywhere at once
but I am here, and I've been here forever
yeah, I escape but I come back
I need more adventure
I need fresh air
I need fresh ideas, thoughts, people
I'm itching

lately nothing has been satisfying me
it's all boring me
I can't sit still, ever
music is barely doing the job

my dreams were weird last night
something are following, they are holding me captive
it's been so long, I know nothing els

I need some more connections;
full of life and full of love