2012

I got closer to Jesus Christ
turned 20,
became a full time photographer,
became a sibling,
made friends that I never thought I would be friends with,
reconciled with "enemies" by chance not choice,
traveled out of the country for the first time ,
had my photo on the home page of a website,
many answered prayers,
was let down and let up,
road tripped & camped ,
drove my self crazy,
got extremely happy,
got extremely sad,
overcame all obstacles ,
overcame almost all my fears
went to SO many concerts,
became interested in running,
have read some of my favorite books ever,
finished and passed my last general ed class,
always tried to remain a free spirit,
and always trusted in God no matter what because of his promise

2013 I'll be starting a new journey
I want to get published in some kind of magazine or lookbook
learn the guitar
lose more weight
read the whole bible
stay true to my word
be happy
focus on living in the moment
and never complain

12/26

after the day before today being not-so-great, today became an overwhelming crazy awesome day that I will never forget.

tasting
deals
talents
comfort
free, freedom
opportunities
all I when I did not deserve


and a beautiful rainbow that I could not even capture end to end

it ended with a little craziness, but I'll gladly accept :)

C o n f u s e d

Since I was young I've been on this search of who I am 

In between the happiness and the sadness  

Thinking I've found myself 

Yet new souls make me stumble with that knowledge

I am transformed so easily 

Blending, conforming 

Liking all the in between 

And being confused in the end 

I just want to find who I am

And I want to be happy 

I often wonder how people spend their lives being totally happy 

How everyone's life is totally different 

Some more lucky than others 

Happiness is a choice...right?

Or so I've been told 

It's insane how broken we can be

Job 14: 1-6

“Mortals, born of woman,
    are of few days and full of trouble.
² They spring up like flowers and wither away;
    like fleeting shadows, they do not endure.
³ Do you fix your eye on them?
    Will you bring them^[a] before you for judgment?
⁴ Who can bring what is pure from the impure?
    No one!
⁵ A person’s days are determined;
    you have decreed the number of his months
    and have set limits he cannot exceed.
⁶ So look away from him and let him alone,
    till he has put in his time like a hired laborer."

I love photography :)