if you want to be free, be free

of course I'm going to be bold

I need to ask certain questions to understand my own life

2012, my year to be strong


I don't feel like writing on here for a little while

christmas eve service

i deleted this post because i hated it

Dear Lord,

I want to give my life back to You
I'm holding onto it way to tightly
people, events, and wantings
they are getting in my way

I feel like I am dreaming of this amazing fantasy fairytale
that won't come true
I'm giving up
and giving it to You

endless in between

were just living this life
it's passing me by, by so fast
I look at myself and ask where the time is going
I watch hair grow, day by day

tonight was so much energy
wrapped in my head
I can't grasp it
and my arms can't wrap the surface of how wide it is

my ideas are becoming more crazy
I need some form of self explosition
where I can let it go
l e t i t a l l g o

right here

is an interesting group of people
at least to me

"you are very controlled by your feelings,

....Jessica".

Annie Armstrong told me that tonight
I like when people state things about me
because I can't see my outside
I can only see OTHER peoples outsides


well it's true folks, I'm very controlled by feelings

is it bad to be impulsive or have a strong feeling for something?
I guess that is how I've always lived...


I hope I never have a broken heart. period.