4:11 am, I think I'm getting sick

i had a dream that i took some portal to iceland

but in my mind the map was like an elevator

the more north you went, the greater the height became

you, my love, told me "I don't know about you, but some places may seem small to some people but in reality they are like -pinches your fingers on the map to from small to big-pretty vast to me.

you were so clear, like a television newscast

I was afraid of falling into the world

I was so high up 

I believe we were there for three days

a school friend, a teacher and a best friend

I made my best friend upset

the morning was a rare golden greened horizon sunrise
so many elements wrapped together

it was beautiful, and a little frightening 

breathe is weak and body thin

press my nose up to the glass around your heartI should’ve known I was weaker from the startyou’ll build your walls and I will play my bloody partto tear, tear them down

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my minds on next weeks roap trip: San Fransisco

Jayden: 9 months

The Human Experience

"Even in the deepest suffering, there is significance. There is a meaningful process of positive possibilities. We have to recover the language of humanity. We cannot understand suffering without it... there's this struggle in life in every class of people... it's what we do with it that matters. "

awesome documentary 

clouded mind & heavy heart

"To dream that you are standing on the edge of a cliff means that you have reached an increased level of understanding, new awareness, and a fresh point of view. You have reached a critical point in your life and cannot risk losing control. "

interesting

last night I went to Skid Row with a group of friends and fed the homeless. It was really awesome. 

I've been deep in my thoughts lately, everyone thinks there is something wrong but I'm fine. Maybe there is something wrong but I'm not that aware.

I've been really inspired to just keep going. Taking every opportunity to grow and to help one another.

Conversations have been interesting

My mind has been elsewhere

I can't focus on normal things

I'm not trying to be rude

today I really enjoyed the mumford and sons new album

I don't really write in this anymore due to my personal journal. It's just so much more freeing in there. No one can see. I don't have to hide anything. I am starting a new blog series though on all different crosses, it will just be photographs of crosses everywhere.

I'm going through a phase 

love would win if it would fight

going camping with my soul sister!

Bekka:

leaving at 6am tomorrow for the Eastern Sierras! will be back sunday

I turned 20

and my friends through me the best party ever